Maclean came twice and went away
And every day... Maclean came twice and went away
And every day the rain fell, the sun blazed, the house became greyer, the sawdust, once fresh and aromatic, became part of the earth, the asphalt snakes hanging from the roof grew longer, and many more died, and MrBiswas worked more and more elaborate messages of comfort for his walls with a steady, unthinking hand, and a mind in turmoil
Then one evening a great calm settled on him, and he made a decisionHe had for too long regarded situations as temporary; henceforth he would look upon every stretch of time, however short, as preciousTime would never be dismissed againNo action would merely lead to another; every action was a part of his life which could not be recalled; therefore thought had to be given to every action: the opening of a matchbox,
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And so great was his assurance that he did something he had not done for weeksHe took down the Reader's Library edition of _The Hunchback of Notre Dame_He passed his hands over the cover; deliberately he opened the book, broke the spine in a few places, destroying it completely in one place, and, pulling up his legs on to the chair so that he was huddled and cosy, and smacking his lips, which was not one of his habits, he began to readHe had pushed everything apart from the
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Surely it was only a trick of the oil lamp, which stood directly in front of him on the table?
He huddled a little more on the chair and smacked his lips again
Then he was so afraid that he almost cried out
Why should he be afraid? Of whom? Esmeralda? Quasimodo? The goat? The crowd?
PeopleHe could hear them next door and all down the barracksNo road was without them, no houseThey were in the newspapers on the wall, in the photographs, in the
replicas de bolsas simple drawings in advertisementsThey were in the book he was holdingThey were in all booksHe tried to think of landscapes without people: sand and sand and sand, without the "oses" Lai had spoken about; vast white plateaux, with himself safely alone, a speck in the centre
Was he afraid of real people?
He must experimentBut why? He had spent all his life among people without even thinking that he might be afraid of themHe had faced people across a rumshop counter; he had gone to school; he had walked down crowded main roads on market day
Why now? Why so suddenly?
His whole past became a miracle of calm and courage
His fingers were dusted with gilt from the pall-like cover of the bookAs he studied them the clearing became overgrown again and the black cloud billowed inHow heavy! How
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He put his feet down and sat still, staring at the lamp, seeing nothingThe darkness filled his headAll his life had been good until nowAnd he had never knownHe had spoiled it all by worry and fearAbout a rotting house, the threats of illiterate labourers
Now he would never more be able to go among people
He surrendered to the darkness
When he roused himself he opened the top half of the doorThe barracks had gone to sleepHe would have to wait until morning to find out whether he was really afraid
In the morning he had a full minute of lucidityHe remembered that something had nagged and exhausted him the previous eveningThen, still in bed, he remembered, and the anguish returnedThe bedsheet looked tormentedThe mattress was exposed in places and he could smell the dingy old
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